So a funny thing happened the other day. I was going through my inbox, answering e-mails, and I found myself responding to a friend I met at blissdom last year. She asked me about my blog, why I started a new blog and what I was up to. I was really pouring my heart out in the e-mail reply. Then I re-read it and I had to laugh at myself.

The e-mail wasn’t a letter at all. It was a blog post. Truth is, it had been way too long since I last posted. And this chance I had to share some feelings opened a floodgate for me. And I wrote and wrote and wrote, before I stopped and caught myself. I laughed. I cut more than half of the e-mail to my friend Rhonda.

{I did save it, and it’ll probably become a blog post here soon.}

But right now I’m in this strange negotiating phase. I’m going from an every day writer, social networker, go-go-go kind of girl, to finding a slower pace. I’m spending time preparing for baby, both physically and emotionally. I feel God changing my heart. turning me from my more selfish pursuits and opening me up to what it feels like to really put my family first.

I’m growing in this. I haven’t yet found my balance. Some weeks I write several times here. Other weeks I write only once, or gasp!  not at all. {Something I never thought I’d do in my blogging life  ever is go a week without posting.} But one thing I read and hear time and time again from my blogging and social media pals who have families is their desire to step away from the computer. Put down the iPhone. Stop tweeting. And start living.

The time we have with our children and our families is precious and we will never get it back. And so I find myself in the midst of negotiating. Writing a little. Engaging a little. And living a lot. And just what in the heck does that look like?

Ever the all-or-nothing girl, I tried doing it all. I tried doing very little-to-none. Neither of these approaches work for me. So instead, I am now seeing how I need to write and I need to live outside of social media. We still have 16 weeks to go before our precious little one arrives. And in the interim, I can see myself reaching for the balance.

I may always be reaching for what feels right, and never truly get “there,” but one thing I know is I have to write. Without it, I feel starved.

What about you? Do you feel challenged with social media and family time?

Is there some thing, some hobby, that you just gotta have?

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